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So yeah there’s that.
He was in my school, I just didn’t know him. He thought he owned me somehow just because he was twenty and I was seventeen.
Keep in mind I was not expecting it, I was alone, he did not have permission, I was not decent enough, I was IN A SHOWER ROOM beside the lockers (so he knew what he was doing), and didn’t have much muscle at the time.
I love school systems.
He walked into the GIRL’S locker room, forcefully made out with a half naked girl, and was given lunch detention while she was suspended.
He didn’t get in trouble at all, he was just given lunch detention for going into the locker room during lunch
One time I was kissed by some guy I had never even met (and it was not just a peck or a smooch it was pretty hard) and I couldn’t get away so I kicked him in the stomach and I got sent to the principal’s office and was suspended for 2 days
Sometimes I cry in front of others even when I’m desperately trying not to
I’ve figured it out with some help
I don’t like the girl in the same way and she’s getting older so she knows a bit more undoubtedly (hence the lip biting thing). I’m afraid one day she’ll let certain things get in the way of our friendship, leaving her without a “face” (or cover-up for her feelings) and I’ll fall (or be a disappointment) and she’ll let me go because I’ve disappointed her.
Or at least that’s the conclusion my brother made
All of my nightmares I’ve described with her in it have at least one of two things in common
- Forced Affection (or lack thereof)
- faceless
So why would I have been thinking about that
What did those dreams mean?
What was their purpose?
Was it telling me something about myself?
So yes those are some of my weird nightmares involving “the girl”.
The next one was a nightmare of her in the tent.
She had woken me up and was like “hey there’s a bear outside” so I said, stay inside. And out of nowhere she kissed me and I said “please don’t do that kiddo, you know you’re not old enough,” but she looked me in the eye and her face melted off and turned into worms that were crawling every which way and so I unzipped the tent to go to my brother’s but he wouldn’t open it so the girl (now faceless,) caught up to me and was like, “will you love me now” and I’m like “I always have but not in that way”, but she said it wasn’t good enough and she forced me to kiss her again but this time she bit my lip and I ran but was pushed down and devoured by the earth.
I’ve had 7 nightmares about the same girl
One of them was I was laying on my couch with my brother and we hear a creak and I’m like “huh” and then my friend (the girl) comes walking in and shoots him through the stomach and I was shocked so I asked her what she was doing and she didn’t respond. Instead she ripped his face off and stuck it on her own and morphed into him. She tried to convince me she was him and I didn’t believe her until my friend walked in (again) from sleeping. So the girl is like, “No, that’s an imposter,” and the other girl was saying the same thing, so they’re like “if we can’t share, let’s cut her in half,” so she picked me up and took off all my clothes and cut me down the middle with a chainsaw. I woke up shaking and crying.
The end.
They say dreams have meaning but I will be 100% honest I don’t know what that nightmare meant
I had a nightmare of one of my friends, it ended pretty quickly because I woke up screaming
I was falling and she had grabbed my hand and she said “kiss me and I’ll pull you up,” but I said no so she had started crying so I’m like “no no honey I’m sorry please don’t cry” and things like that. She dropped me and I fell through space and into a weird coffin and I looked beside me and she was there but her face was ripped off and she’s like “this is what you’ve done to me. Are you happy with yourself?”
I had a dream about asking someone to eat me (like physically eat my flesh) and I woke up like “tf?” 😭😂
They say you can’t make up new faces but I do
I have weird dreams about people I don’t know.